Asterism

Careless as the water. Carefree as the Wind.
The Deneb of Cygnus
--the brightest at its tail
The chest of the Archer, a centaur. The ninth.
It took one look at the target, the result an Aldebaran.
A hit. Not a miss.
It was a Cassiopeia to a Polaris.

I want to be somebody like Ms. Vene Rallonza

(PHOTO COURTESY OF VINCE ESCARCHA)

This is Ms. Vene Rallonza, my POS 180.27 professor. And after a semester of politics in alternative spaces, I realized how much I'd want to be like her.

One year and 3 months ago, before I even met Maam Vene, I had a shaved head and it was a statement of my politics and my advocacy. Some people would constantly tell me that I remind them of a Political Science professor in the Ateneo. Being the POS major that I was, I knew that this certain Ms. Rallonza was never encountered by myself in any formal (or even informal) circumstance.

Then I took her Politics in the Margins class. A class that killed all the boredom that is politics. We saw how politics exist and even thrive in marginalized, unusual spaces and how, despite the marginalization of these alternative spaces, we saw as a class that politics can be very fun, exciting and well appreciated.

We had big time speakers for several Thursdays. We had Dr. Bong, Joey Ayala, Auraeus Solito, Jalton of Sugarfree and Dr. Contreras. My personal favorite was Mr. Joey Ayala because I got really starstrucked by his presence.

But what is most striking for me about Maam Vene and her class is her attitude towards her own politics. She is not scared to be unique and that trait is what I appreciate very much. Her attachment and sincere connection with Filipino roots and traditions as manifested by her inked body and her manner by which she shares this with her family make me look up to her even more.

Ang cool ng pamilya nila. HAHAHAHA :)) Kita naman sa picture na 'to. Naikuwento ni Maam Vene ang pagsali ng anak niya sa contest na 'to at sinabi niya sa amin na siya na ata ang pinaka-supportive na nanay na nandoon sa venue, given nga na ang mga contestants na lalaki ng mga nanay na naroon ay nagdamit at nagkilos babae. Sabi ko rin dati nung mas bata pa ako na gusto ko tatawagin akong "Nanay" ng mga anak ko. And nalaman ko nalang sa class ko na si Maam Vene ay "Nanay" kung tawagin ng mga anak niya. Tapos pupunta pa sila next week sa Kalinga Apayao para magpatattoo yung anak niyang nasa picture. Hangcoooooooool talaga at 'di ako ma-over.

-Kalbo
-Nanay ang tawag
-Maraming tattoo
-Theater actress
-Cool mom
-Artist
-Unique and really brave
-Educator
-Funny and loud
-Very supportive

Grabe, katakot pala na karamihan ng ugali ko/hilig ko/gusto ko in the future ay nagmamanifest sa isang being. Pwede pala yun. HAHAHAHA :))

Last night was an awesome night for me and my classmates in POS180.27 -- sa conclusion ng class namin through LUNAN: One Night Only, nakita kong nag-pay off talaga ang galing at passion ni Maam sa pagtuturo. SNAPS FOR HER :>

Idol talaga kita. :)

Scarlet Mill

12012010 - Happy Birthday To Us :D

(I've had) The Time of My Life

Boy: Now I've had the time of my life
No I never felt like this before
Yes I swear it's the truth
and I owe it all to you

Girl: 'Cause I've had the time of my life
and I owe it all to you

Boy: I've been waiting for so long
Now I've finally found someone
To stand by me

Girl: We saw the writing on the wall
As we felt this magical fantasy

Both: Now with passion in our eyes
There's no way we could disguise it secretly
So we take each other's hand
'Cause we seem to understand the urgency

Boy: just remember

Girl: You're the one thing

Boy: I can't get enough of

Girl: So I'll tell you something

Both:This could be love because

(CHORUS)
Both: I've had the time of my life
No I never felt this way before
Yes I swear it's the truth
And I owe it all to you
'Cause I've had the time of my life
And I've searched through every open door
'Til I found the truth
And I owe it all to you

Girl: With my body and soul
I want you more than you'll ever know

Boy: So we'll just let it go
Don't be afraid to lose control

Girl: Yes I know whats on your mind
When you say:
"Stay with me tonight."

Boy: Just remember
You're the one thing

Girl: I can't get enough of

Boy: So I'll tell you something

Both: This could be love because

(CHORUS)
Both: 'Cause I had the time of my life
No I've never felt this way before
Yes I swear it's the truth
And I owe it all to you
'Cause I've had the time of my life
And I've searched through every open door
Till I found the truth
and I owe it all to you

*Instrumental*

Boy: Now I've had the time of my life
No I never felt this way before

(Girl: Never Felt this way)

Boy: Yes I swear it's the truth
and I owe it all to you

Both: 'Cause I had the time of my life
And I've searched through every open door
Till I've found the truth
and I owe it all to you

Both: "cause I've had the time of my life
No I've never felt this way before
Yes I swear it's the truth
And I owe it all to you

Stop Looking

I am your existential meaning.

:> :> :>

You're lucky to have her

You're lucky to have your bestfriend :)
She cares for you a lot..as evidenced by what she tried to tell me.

Cute.

Wala lang, just sharing.

And I thought It'd be fine

One line that struck me when I watched the film "Babe, I love you" was when the female lead said to the man he loved who after learning her deepest secrets turned so mad and felt so betrayed: "MAHALAGA PA BA YUN?" (Does it matter?)

What will you do if you learned something so controversial about the one you care about?
Will it still matter at the end?

If you learned it from other people just like what happened in the movie, will you be able to confront that very important person in your life and ask if the rumors are true?

Will it still matter even if what happened, happened in the past? Will it still hold water that you are the present to each other and maybe even the future.

It was Halloween last night but the revelation (or rumor) was spookier than the actual horror of a supernatural encounter. I guess even the question "Is it true" or the statement "I forgive you" which may or may not come after need not hold water especially if no fault was committed against anyone, just a mere secret of the past.. No more, no less.

Just a secret that was revealed in one way or the other.
No fault especially not against my person.
A thing of the past that wasn't shared. Or wasn't shared or talked about enough.

"I know it's crazy but its keeping me sane" (SCVP, 2010)

I'm paranoid and an overthinker.
But as the female lead asked in the movie, does it still matter?
If it was a big part of the past that the other tries to bury (it just so happens that somebody innocently digs it out), will you judge him or her.

I honestly thought I was open to these kinds of things. But not in my mind did I imagine that it will happen to me, whether or not the rumor is true.

Is it a curse that I am so open-minded? and as my friends would claim, I am *the* magnet. If so, what's happening here? Why is it happening now and I don't seem to be ready at all? Not healthy. Not at all.

I am ready to be honest and grow and be nurtured.
And I think what I need now is honesty. Bluntness.
I know it will hurt.. but,

Let's talk about it.

If I can be a significant other, I can be the best friend.




Trust me.