A Conversation about Love with my Kuya

Jessan
hahah
sympre.. kay we love each other
hahah

11:15pm
Me
haha
toinks
i'll pray for you.
'cause you're too in love.
i know that it is not a bad thing
but it shouldn't be the only thing

11:17pm
Jessan
and because we trust each other
respect each other

11:17pm
Me
yeah i understand that
and there's really no problem
it's just that the "high" feeling won't always stay.
Love will always be a constant decision
an everyday moment of saying yes to commitment
you grow old or fat or oily or foolish, one will stay because he/she made that daily commitment
that constant yes

11:20pm
Jessan
heheheh.. wow.. naadvice akon manghod..
anu ito ito? based on experience?
eheheh

11:20pm
Me
i just don't want that you exhaust everything
kay you have to spread it evenly
hit iyo entire relationship
diri la pwede nga "Up there" feeling every time
baga
step back

11:21pm
Jessan
balet, dont worry, im fully aware of that..

11:21pm
Me
relax, and ground yourselves
every day

11:21pm
Jessan
ok ok.. cge..

11:22pm
Me
>:D<

11:22pm
Jessan
thanks sa advice..

11:22pm
Me
i love you Kuya

11:22pm
Jessan
yeah, ilove me too..
bwahahah!|
>:D<
balet, iloveu too!!

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Yes

I went to Mass yesterday at 7PM at Our Lady of Pentecost. The place never ceases to amuse me. But what was even better was the homily.

The gospel was composed of three parables of losing and finding.

The Parable of the Lost Sheep

The Parable of the Lost Coin

The Parable of the Lost Son (Prodigal Son)

Fr. Bong mentioned that hope is very important in the process of forgiveness. And that even a single lost sheep will always be worth finding and in the event of its emergence, celebration is even more worth it.

I am cold and I feel alone.

I never thought that I will feel it this early: I AM TIRED.

Burnout.

Ang aga pa, pero andito na.

Nalulungkot ako.

Napapagod na ako.

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In the randomness of the night, the tears of weariness are falling.

The tears of my own-made helplessness are here.

Falling because of gravity. Falling because tear ducts are weak. Falling because I am around.

My breath turns heavy.

My eyelids are shutting down.

Despite exact number hours of sleep.

---

I am so tired physically. mentally. emotionally.

I am growing weak.

I hope it doesn't end in this defeated battle.

Stand up for LOVE.

Despite its being anti-political.

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Where is the depth of thought.

How trivial are we?

and how superficial?

so superficial, I'm growing weary.

Even without the words

I've never said it.

But soon enough, perhaps I will be compelled to do so.

Some people put words into my mouth and claim that I've said those things before even if I haven't.

and now, I wonder how or when or why will I even say it.

Because maybe, just maybe -- you already know it even without the words.

I want to be creative.

But at the same time, I am stunned.

I am silenced.

I am shot.

I am stumbling.

--

But at the end of the day, that'll still be #5.

In His time, YES.

Not in ours.

WE deserve it.

Take it Easy, No Pressure, Remember to Breathe

The revelation of the night didn't come from you directly. But it was still shocking in itself. There might be few misquotations and what not, but even the most generic sentence or phrase that you can get from that conversation was scary. Well at least for my part. :>

Be careful. I'm serious.

Your friend told me to be careful and to anticipate even more things to come.

Well I tell you, take it easy, no pressure and remember to breathe.

I think I can say that we have all the time in the world. I think we can make it. But let's take things easy so that we can enjoy even the trivial stuff.

Remember that there is no pressure. And I know that you'll understand. This is important, but so as our other priorities.

You make me realize a lot of things about myself, about my life and about the things that we can do, and that these things we can do even in a slow-paced manner.

Relax. Chill.

Everything has its own time.

WE have ours.

Let us let it slip away with a memory for every second.

:)

Resonance of what used to be

I will blog today because I feel like what I want to say is worth blogging.

If I'm not mistaken, my first (or perhaps, second) entry in this blog was about the limitations and wariness I have to espouse given my title and position.

And what I naively thought as grave limitations to my liberty (e.g. manner of dressing, the way I speak and act, etc.), are so minor compared to what I have to somehow give-up in order to survive this presidency.

I was not forced by myself to give in, but it's what the situation calls for it.

I am professional but it can only go as far as I perceive it to be.


Diri ako pwede maghinaut na mayda kinabubuwasan ini kay yana pala, diri na dayon pwede. Bangin ha masunod nga mga bulan, pwede pa. Yana, trabaho la it dapat mauna ngan diri kun anuman it mga pinapan-abat. Malain ha dughan nga waray ako choice kay tuyo la na ginpili ko man ini nga mga higayon. Makuri kay mayda ada... It kaso, aada hiya ht lidung nga guinlilibutan ko (pero trabaho nga lidung)

Law of Proportionalism

The greater good.

The lesser evil.

Or am I simply justifying
that this one's something good for a change.

Quite different from what I expected and indeed, this is something new.